I want to start by addressing another argument that I heard on social media: Autism must be purely genetic because my son wasn't vaxxed yet he has Level 2 Autism.
My response: Lung cancer does occur in non-smokers. That doesn't mean that smoking has nothing to do with it. I never said that vackseens are the sole reason for the increase. In fact, I've been clear that multiple factors are in play. However, I do believe vackseens increase the risk. Too many mothers have said that they decided not to vacksinate after their first born had an adverse reaction. Many of them report that their unvaxxed children are perfectly healthy.
Some people were offended by RFK'S remark about how autistic people will never date or hold a job. It's obvious that he was referring to Level 3 cases who are non-verbal and require nearly constant supervision. There's a night and day difference between Level 1 and Level 3 but I am proof that high functioning Autism is certainly no picnic either. Another person said to love them as they are and don't seek a cure. I'm all for the former but not seeking a cure or at least improvement in their function? What the _________!
It's pretty obvious to me that if I was never sick or I was cured at a younger age, my life would have turned out very differently. Let's consider some possibilities:
If I was growing up today and presented the same traits that I did in elementary school, everyone would have known. It was that obvious. Teachers would have been more apt to punish bullies for targeting an autistic kid. However, I could see myself playing the victim card. I may have settled for average academic performance when I was clearly capable of better.
By the time I got to high school, it was less obvious, but nobody would have been terribly surprised if I revealed the diagnosis. I've imagined being asked to try a new and highly effective treatment in 9th grade. What would have happened?
After much deliberation, I ultimately decide to try it even if it is risky. I endure a couple of rough months while detoxing over the summer but come back better than ever in 10th grade. I'd imagine that some people might be uneasy with the changes in me. I could strain a few friendships but overall I have a much better social life. A conservative estimate is that I can run 5-7 percent faster across the board and score 100 points higher on my SAT. I could envision becoming a little bit arrogant but not nearly as bad as I've seen from other elite runners. There is no subtle rejection from my teammates and very little disrespect from classmates. I probably choose a different school for undergrad with a different major. Where does life take me from that point? Impossible to say, so I won't bother to speculate.
How I thought it would play out was being able to wean off the thyroid and adrenal supplements in 2003. I have a much better experience at Clemson and get a good job in the private sector. Most likely, I stay in South Carolina but would be open to relocating within the South. I'm sure that I would still run and travel but not to the extent that I did in this timeline. Maybe I hit 25 half marathons states with a PR just north of 1:35. Would I be happy in that life? Much of that would depend on what happens outside of work. Would I make a good choice with my life partner? I am not sure. I don't think I would have been a full fledged cuck but definitely a simp. I could envision myself walking on eggshells to avoid the wrath of my wife while tolerating verbal abuse myself. A child with severe Autism knowing that it was my genes that caused it? Words could not express my heartbreak. I read today that autistic children put a tremendous strain on marriages and 80 percent end in divorce. Very sad but I believe it.
Even when I was running well in the early 2010s, I had to take an exact cocktail of pills to make it work. Still, for several years, it appeared that I would be able to get and stay in balance without pills. For a few glorious months, I seemingly had it. In this timeline, I am content with my current job here in Birmingham. That's the outcome that I would have chosen. Again, the only way that I am not happy is if I marry the wrong woman and have a handicapped child.
By 2015, it was clear that my treatment had to go in a different direction. I felt lied to about my healing and used to spread false hopes. Suppose that I endure a rough year or two then bounce back most of the way? I'd still be hurt but eventually I'd be okay spiritually and emotionally. Even if my current plan succeeds, which is no guarantee, I had to wait another decade while getting worse all the time. It wouldn't be so bad if I was at least holding up or not regressing so quickly. The only positive is that I was not coerced into getting the COVID jab. It took something like COVID to get people to wake up.
The only way that my faith is restored? People listen to what I say about healing and I successfully lead many others to better health. There's a woman out there that I would have overlooked or would not have been a good fit if we met a decade ago. I don't want a pity party over my situation but I do expect others to acknowledge that I face unique challenges that they don't understand. Do NOT judge me for being single!
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